detikcom cari sensasi seputar konflik kemkominfo

"Yayasan Airputih, lembaga swadaya masyarakat (LSM) yang bergerak di bidang IT akan menyalurkan sejumlah bantuan alat komunikasi bagi korban bencana tsunami di Mentawai, Sumatera Barat. Namun, syarat perizinan dari Kemenkominfo menghambat proses ini. Ada pun bantuan yang diberikan berupa 24 unit telepon satelit dan alat pemancar yang ditujukan bagi perbaikan komunikasi di kawasan Mentawai. Peralatan tersebut saat ini sudah berada di kantor pusat Airputih di Jakarta. Nah, saat bertemu para pejabat dari Direktorat Jenderal Pos dan Telekomunikasi Kemenkominfo dalam diskusi di Badan Nasional Penanggulangan Bencana (BNPB), bantuan ini rupanya tak bisa serta merta disalurkan. Harus ada izin atau sertifikasi dari lembaga yang dipimpin oleh Tifatul Sembiring tersebut."

Komentar: Sabar jadi orang.

"Itu aturan untuk perusahaan komersil. Sementara Airputih lembaga sosial yang memberikan dukungan IT untuk kemanusiaan. Ini yang tadi menjadi diskusi panjang," sambungnya."

Komentar: Mana coba tunjukkin Undang-undangnya.

"Menurut Imron, jika aturan tersebut diterapkan, maka bantuan yang sudah dihibahkan terpaksa dikembalikan ke negara donor. Padahal, alat komunikasi adalah kebutuhan mendasar di Mentawai, terutama dalam hal penyaluran bantuan."

Komentar: Koq udah dihibahkan, dikembaliin lagi? Emang yayasan ente minjem? Ada motiv tersembunyi nih.

"Kalau kita gunakan skenario mereka. Bantuan itu bisa digunakan berapa lama, tapi dikembalikan ke tim. Bagaimana misalnya ada kebutuhan urgent dan peralatan ini mendesak untuk dipakai. Akan ribet lagi, padahal kebutuhan komunikasi di lapangan harus terus berjalan,"

Komentar: Ni yayasan mau nolong tapi maksa banget, nolong setengah-setengah. Peralatannya koq dibalikkin lagi sebelum masa darurat di Mentawai selesai, ga usah aja kale, cari muke.

Baca di: http://us.detiknews.com/read/2011/01/21/010749/1551342/10/bantuan-yayasan-airputih-di-mentawai-terhambat-izin-kemenkominfo

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porno dan pajak di mata seorang islam liberal

1. Masalah pajak merupakan sesuatu hal yang bisa didiskusikan tanpa perlu difokusi.
Secara kasarnya, fokus-engga fokus, kominfo itu bukan organisasi yang isinya cuma satu orang aja, jadi bila si Anies berkomentar dengan alasan kefokusan, itu hal yang bisa ditertawakan.
2. Demi mendukung UU Anti Pornografi, pemerintah Indonesia (dalam hal ini diwakili Pak Tifatul) -wajar dan bisa dimaklumi- menambahkan alasan soal pornografi yang tidak bisa difilter, karena memang sudah ada UU Anti Pornografinya toh.
3. Logisnya ini memperlihatkan si Anies itu pendukung porno-party.
Saya kasih cap seperti itu karena dia sudah menjadi 'figur publik' yang perkataannya mempunyai pengaruh, sebagai seorang rektor yang ucapannya pun dimuat di media besar. Dia bisa menyesatkan publik dengan ucapannya dan pengaruh statusnya di level atas.
4. Saksikan kisah ironi mengenai si Anies: Pertama, dia berkomentar isu pornografi, yang disorot sebelumnya oleh dia, sebagai argumen yang kecil. Kedua, dia adalah rektor universitas Islam, yang merendahkan nilai dari suatu isu pornografi. Ketiga, dia turut serta dalam seminar 'Perempuan, Ruang Publik, dan Islam'.

Terakhir, singkat & sederhana, saya sarankan agar Anda berhati-hati dengan pernyataan orang-orang Islam Liberal. Apalagi sampai terjadi kasus di perguruan tinggi Islam yang menganut paham sama, sampai di suatu saat mempunyai slogan: "Area Bebas Tuhan". Kata bebas di sini saya yakin memiliki ambiguitas antara 'Tuhan seolah-olah tidak mengamati apa yang mereka lakukan di area itu' dan 'Tuhan seolah-olah tidak mendengarkan apa yang akan mereka deklarasikan di area itu .'

pembaca umpan: feeddemon v4 vs google reader

1. feeddemon.com
Kelebihan feeddemon:
+1) Mudah membackup kumpulan umpan rss atau atom milik kita. Tips ane, backup folder v1 ke usb stick, jadi settingan kumpulan ente ga ilang. Atau klo mau juga, ekspor filenya sebagai file OPML. Ane lebih suka cara pertama, tinggal copy-paste foldernya. Btw, klo ga salah folder AppData itu sifatnya hidden, jangan lupa ubah settingan windows explorer ente.
+2) Twittan dari twitter mudah dibaca, kadang-kadang saya males pake twitter di websitenya, cuma muncul 20 buah twitt baru, kudu ngscroll ke bawah baru muncul twittan baru. Twittan bisa langsung dibales di aplikasinya.

Versi Pronya bisa ngemuat kayak twitter deck, istilahnya "Stream".

+3) Bisa disinkronin dengan google reader, ane make google reader, cuma mau ngikutin blogger yang pake blogspot, ane jarang pake tag-tag juga, lebih enak ngasih bintang.
+4) Bisa pake internet explorer di aplikasinya langsung, bisa juga pake firefox, chrome, atau opera, klo ente ngset salah satu dari mereka sebagai browser default, tp cuma bisa pake di browser luar, bukan di aplikasinya sendiri, jadi otomatis bookmark di internet explorer ente bisa diliat di menu Favorit di aplikasinya.

+5) Ada versi bahasa Indonesianya, donlot ja file bahasanya di sini:http://www.mediafire.com/?z7dn983xvlbb1dv
Klo ente mau beli versi Pronya, lewat paypal lebih cepet, jadi belinya di aplikasinya sendiri juga bisa. Liat tutorial paypal di sini: http://www.paypalindonesia.com/

+6) Versi Pronya bisa ngdonlot podcast, biasanya ini dijadiin lampiran di umpannya, jadi tinggal klik kiri lampirannya:

Kekurangan FeedDemon:
-Belum bisa pake firefox, chrome, atau opera sebagai browser internal, tp ane liat pake internet explorer juga udah mantep klo sekedar liat teks, gambar, ma video.

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2. reader.google.com
Ngaksesnya bisa lewat add-ons firefox: Google Shortcuts
Kelebihan Google Reader
+1) Bisa memuat umpan-umpan yang dulu-dulu lebih bagus, jadi tinggal scroll down. Artikel dari beberapa bulan yang lalu juga ada.
+2) Ga perlu backup2, biar dibackup di servernya google.Kekurangan Google Reader
-1)Kurang ergonomis peletakan list umpannya: List langganan kita letaknya paling bawah, klo umpan kita banyak, bosen juga ngscrollnya. -2) Klo akun ente diban ma google, ilang juga koleksi umpan ente.

deathnote of bill zeller, creator of 'graph your inbox' & 'mytunes'

I have the urge to declare my sanity and justify my actions, but I
assume I'll never be able to convince anyone that this was the right
decision. Maybe it's true that anyone who does this is insane by
definition, but I can at least explain my reasoning. I considered not
writing any of this because of how personal it is, but I like tying up
loose ends and don't want people to wonder why I did this. Since I've
never spoken to anyone about what happened to me, people would likely
draw the wrong conclusions.

My first memories as a child are of being raped, repeatedly. This has
affected every aspect of my life. This darkness, which is the only way I
can describe it, has followed me like a fog, but at times intensified
and overwhelmed me, usually triggered by a distinct situation. In
kindergarten I couldn't use the bathroom and would stand petrified
whenever I needed to, which started a trend of awkward and unexplained
social behavior. The damage that was done to my body still prevents me
from using the bathroom normally, but now it's less of a physical
impediment than a daily reminder of what was done to me.

This darkness followed me as I grew up. I remember spending hours
playing with legos, having my world consist of me and a box of cold,
plastic blocks. Just waiting for everything to end. It's the same thing
I do now, but instead of legos it's surfing the web or reading or
listening to a baseball game. Most of my life has been spent feeling
dead inside, waiting for my body to catch up.

At times growing up I would feel inconsolable rage, but I never
connected this to what happened until puberty. I was able to keep the
darkness at bay for a few hours at a time by doing things that required
intense concentration, but it would always come back. Programming
appealed to me for this reason. I was never particularly fond of
computers or mathematically inclined, but the temporary peace it would
provide was like a drug. But the darkness always returned and built up
something like a tolerance, because programming has become less and less
of a refuge.

The darkness is with me nearly every time I wake up. I feel like a grime
is covering me. I feel like I'm trapped in a contimated body that no
amount of washing will clean. Whenever I think about what happened I
feel manic and itchy and can't concentrate on anything else. It
manifests itself in hours of eating or staying up for days at a time or
sleeping for sixteen hours straight or week long programming binges or
constantly going to the gym. I'm exhausted from feeling like this every
hour of every day.

Three to four nights a week I have nightmares about what happened. It
makes me avoid sleep and constantly tired, because sleeping with what
feels like hours of nightmares is not restful. I wake up sweaty and
furious. I'm reminded every morning of what was done to me and the
control it has over my life.

I've never been able to stop thinking about what happened to me and this
hampered my social interactions. I would be angry and lost in thought
and then be interrupted by someone saying "Hi" or making small talk,
unable to understand why I seemed cold and distant. I walked around,
viewing the outside world from a distant portal behind my eyes, unable
to perform normal human niceties. I wondered what it would be like to
take to other people without what happened constantly on my mind, and I
wondered if other people had similar experiences that they were better
able to mask.

Alcohol was also something that let me escape the darkness. It would
always find me later, though, and it was always angry that I managed to
escape and it made me pay. Many of the irresponsible things I did were
the result of the darkness. Obviously I'm responsible for every decision
and action, including this one, but there are reasons why things happen
the way they do.

Alcohol and other drugs provided a way to ignore the realities of my
situation. It was easy to spend the night drinking and forget that I had
no future to look forward to. I never liked what alcohol did to me, but
it was better than facing my existence honestly. I haven't touched
alcohol or any other drug in over seven months (and no drugs or alcohol
will be involved when I do this) and this has forced me to evaluate my
life in an honest and clear way. There's no future here. The darkness
will always be with me.

I used to think if I solved some problem or achieved some goal, maybe he
would leave. It was comforting to identify tangible issues as the source
of my problems instead of something that I'll never be able to change. I
thought that if I got into to a good college, or a good grad school, or
lost weight, or went to the gym nearly every day for a year, or created
programs that millions of people used, or spent a summer or California
or New York or published papers that I was proud of, then maybe I would
feel some peace and not be constantly haunted and unhappy. But nothing I
did made a dent in how depressed I was on a daily basis and nothing was
in any way fulfilling. I'm not sure why I ever thought that would change
anything.

I didn't realize how deep a hold he had on me and my life until my
first relationship. I stupidly assumed that no matter how the darkness
affected me personally, my romantic relationships would somehow be
separated and protected. Growing up I viewed my future relationships as
a possible escape from this thing that haunts me every day, but I began
to realize how entangled it was with every aspect of my life and how it
is never going to release me. Instead of being an escape, relationships
and romantic contact with other people only intensified everything about
him that I couldn't stand. I will never be able to have a relationship
in which he is not the focus, affecting every aspect of my romantic
interactions.

Relationships always started out fine and I'd be able to ignore him for
a few weeks. But as we got closer emotionally the darkness would return
and every night it'd be me, her and the darkness in a black and gruesome
threesome. He would surround me and penetrate me and the more we did the
more intense it became. It made me hate being touched, because as long
as we were separated I could view her like an outsider viewing something
good and kind and untainted. Once we touched, the darkness would
envelope her too and take her over and the evil inside me would surround
her. I always felt like I was infecting anyone I was with.

Relationships didn't work. No one I dated was the right match, and I
thought that maybe if I found the right person it would overwhelm him.
Part of me knew that finding the right person wouldn't help, so I became
interested in girls who obviously had no interest in me. For a while I
thought I was gay. I convinced myself that it wasn't the darkness at
all, but rather my orientation, because this would give me control over
why things didn't feel "right". The fact that the darkness affected
sexual matters most intensely made this idea make some sense and I
convinced myself of this for a number of years, starting in college
after my first relationship ended. I told people I was gay (at Trinity,
not at Princeton), even though I wasn't attracted to men and kept
finding myself interested in girls. Because if being gay wasn't the
answer, then what was? People thought I was avoiding my orientation, but
I was actually avoiding the truth, which is that while I'm straight, I
will never be content with anyone. I know now that the darkness will
never leave.

Last spring I met someone who was unlike anyone else I'd ever met.
Someone who showed me just how well two people could get along and how
much I could care about another human being. Someone I know I could be
with and love for the rest of my life, if I weren't so fucked up.
Amazingly, she liked me. She liked the shell of the man the darkness had
left behind. But it didn't matter because I couldn't be alone with her.
It was never just the two of us, it was always the three of us: her, me
and the darkness. The closer we got, the more intensely I'd feel the
darkness, like some evil mirror of my emotions. All the closeness we had
and I loved was complemented by agony that I couldn't stand, from him. I
realized that I would never be able to give her, or anyone, all of me or
only me. She could never have me without the darkness and evil inside
me. I could never have just her, without the darkness being a part of
all of our interactions. I will never be able to be at peace or content
or in a healthy relationship. I realized the futility of the romantic
part of my life. If I had never met her, I would have realized this as
soon as I met someone else who I meshed similarly well with. It's likely
that things wouldn't have worked out with her and we would have broken
up (with our relationship ending, like the majority of relationships do)
even if I didn't have this problem, since we only dated for a short
time. But I will face exactly the same problems with the darkness with
anyone else. Despite my hopes, love and compatability is not enough.
Nothing is enough. There's no way I can fix this or even push the
darkness down far enough to make a relationship or any type of intimacy
feasible.

So I watched as things fell apart between us. I had put an explicit time
limit on our relationship, since I knew it couldn't last because of the
darkness and didn't want to hold her back, and this caused a variety of
problems. She was put in an unnatural situation that she never should
have been a part of. It must have been very hard for her, not knowing
what was actually going on with me, but this is not something I've ever
been able to talk about with anyone. Losing her was very hard for me as
well. Not because of her (I got over our relationship relatively
quickly), but because of the realization that I would never have another
relationship and because it signified the last true, exclusive personal
connection I could ever have. This wasn't apparent to other people,
because I could never talk about the real reasons for my sadness. I was
very sad in the summer and fall, but it was not because of her, it was
because I will never escape the darkness with anyone. She was so loving
and kind to me and gave me everything I could have asked for under the
circumstances. I'll never forget how much happiness she brought me in
those briefs moments when I could ignore the darkness. I had originally
planned to kill myself last winter but never got around to it. (Parts of
this letter were written over a year ago, other parts days before doing
this.) It was wrong of me to involve myself in her life if this were a
possibility and I should have just left her alone, even though we only
dated for a few months and things ended a long time ago. She's just one
more person in a long list of people I've hurt.

I could spend pages talking about the other relationships I've had that
were ruined because of my problems and my confusion related to the
darkness. I've hurt so many great people because of who I am and my
inability to experience what needs to be experienced. All I can say is
that I tried to be honest with people about what I thought was true.

I've spent my life hurting people. Today will be the last time.

I've told different people a lot of things, but I've never told anyone
about what happened to me, ever, for obvious reasons. It took me a while
to realize that no matter how close you are to someone or how much they
claim to love you, people simply cannot keep secrets. I learned this a
few years ago when I thought I was gay and told people. The more harmful
the secret, the juicier the gossip and the more likely you are to be
betrayed. People don't care about their word or what they've promised,
they just do whatever the fuck they want and justify it later. It feels
incredibly lonely to realize you can never share something with someone
and have it be between just the two of you. I don't blame anyone in
particular, I guess it's just how people are. Even if I felt like this
is something I could have shared, I have no interest in being part of a
friendship or relationship where the other person views me as the
damaged and contaminated person that I am. So even if I were able to
trust someone, I probably would not have told them about what happened
to me. At this point I simply don't care who knows.

I feel an evil inside me. An evil that makes me want to end life. I need
to stop this. I need to make sure I don't kill someone, which is not
something that can be easily undone. I don't know if this is related to
what happened to me or something different. I recognize the irony of
killing myself to prevent myself from killing someone else, but this
decision should indicate what I'm capable of.

So I've realized I will never escape the darkness or misery associated
with it and I have a responsibility to stop myself from physically
harming others.

I'm just a broken, miserable shell of a human being. Being molested has
defined me as a person and shaped me as a human being and it has made me
the monster I am and there's nothing I can do to escape it. I don't know
any other existence. I don't know what life feels like where I'm apart
from any of this. I actively despise the person I am. I just feel
fundamentally broken, almost non-human. I feel like an animal that woke
up one day in a human body, trying to make sense of a foreign world,
living among creatures it doesn't understand and can't connect with.

I have accepted that the darkness will never allow me to be in a
relationship. I will never go to sleep with someone in my arms, feeling
the comfort of their hands around me. I will never know what
uncontimated intimacy is like. I will never have an exclusive bond with
someone, someone who can be the recipient of all the love I have to
give. I will never have children, and I wanted to be a father so badly.
I think I would have made a good dad. And even if I had fought through
the darkness and married and had children all while being unable to feel
intimacy, I could have never done that if suicide were a possibility. I
did try to minimize pain, although I know that this decision will hurt
many of you. If this hurts you, I hope that you can at least forget
about me quickly.

There's no point in identifying who molested me, so I'm just going to
leave it at that. I doubt the word of a dead guy with no evidence about
something that happened over twenty years ago would have much sway.

You may wonder why I didn't just talk to a professional about this. I've
seen a number of doctors since I was a teenager to talk about other
issues and I'm positive that another doctor would not have helped. I was
never given one piece of actionable advice, ever. More than a few spent
a large part of the session reading their notes to remember who I was.
And I have no interest in talking about being raped as a child, both
because I know it wouldn't help and because I have no confidence it
would remain secret. I know the legal and practical limits of
doctor/patient confidentiality, growing up in a house where we'd hear
stories about the various mental illnesses of famous people, stories
that were passed down through generations. All it takes is one doctor
who thinks my story is interesting enough to share or a doctor who
thinks it's her right or responsibility to contact the authorities and
have me identify the molestor (justifying her decision by telling
herself that someone else might be in danger). All it takes is a single
doctor who violates my trust, just like the "friends" who I told I was
gay did, and everything would be made public and I'd be forced to live
in a world where people would know how fucked up I am. And yes, I
realize this indicates that I have severe trust issues, but they're
based on a large number of experiences with people who have shown a
profound disrepect for their word and the privacy of others.

People say suicide is selfish. I think it's selfish to ask people to
continue living painful and miserable lives, just so you possibly won't
feel sad for a week or two. Suicide may be a permanent solution to a
temporary problem, but it's also a permanent solution to a ~23 year-old
problem that grows more intense and overwhelming every day.

Some people are just dealt bad hands in this life. I know many people
have it worse than I do, and maybe I'm just not a strong person, but I
really did try to deal with this. I've tried to deal with this every day
for the last 23 years and I just can't fucking take it anymore.

I often wonder what life must be like for other people. People who
can feel the love from others and give it back unadulterated, people who
can experience sex as an intimate and joyous experience, people who can
experience the colors and happenings of this world without constant
misery. I wonder who I'd be if things had been different or if I were a
stronger person. It sounds pretty great.

I'm prepared for death. I'm prepared for the pain and I am ready to no
longer exist. Thanks to the strictness of New Jersey gun laws this will
probably be much more painful than it needs to be, but what can you do.
My only fear at this point is messing something up and surviving.

---

I'd also like to address my family, if you can call them that. I despise
everything they stand for and I truly hate them, in a non-emotional,
dispassionate and what I believe is a healthy way. The world will be a
better place when they're dead--one with less hatred and intolerance.

If you're unfamiliar with the situation, my parents are fundamentalist
Christians who kicked me out of their house and cut me off financially
when I was 19 because I refused to attend seven hours of church a week.

They live in a black and white reality they've constructed for
themselves. They partition the world into good and evil and survive
by hating everything they fear or misunderstand and calling it love.
They don't understand that good and decent people exist all around us,
"saved" or not, and that evil and cruel people occupy a large percentage
of their church. They take advantage of people looking for hope by
teaching them to practice the same hatred they practice.

A random example:

"I am personally convinced that if a Muslim truly believes and obeys the
Koran, he will be a terrorist." - George Zeller, August 24, 2010.

If you choose to follow a religion where, for example, devout Catholics
who are trying to be good people are all going to Hell but child
molestors go to Heaven (as long as they were "saved" at some point),
that's your choice, but it's fucked up. Maybe a God who operates by
those rules does exist. If so, fuck Him.

Their church was always more important than the members of their family
and they happily sacrificed whatever necessary in order to satisfy
their contrived beliefs about who they should be.

I grew up in a house where love was proxied through a God I could never
believe in. A house where the love of music with any sort of a beat was
literally beaten out of me. A house full of hatred and intolerance, run
by two people who were experts at appearing kind and warm when others
were around. Parents who tell an eight year old that his grandmother is
going to Hell because she's Catholic. Parents who claim not to be racist
but then talk about the horrors of miscegenation. I could list hundreds
of other examples, but it's tiring.

Since being kicked out, I've interacted with them in relatively normal
ways. I talk to them on the phone like nothing happened. I'm not sure
why. Maybe because I like pretending I have a family. Maybe I like
having people I can talk to about what's been going on in my life.
Whatever the reason, it's not real and it feels like a sham. I should
have never allowed this reconnection to happen.

I wrote the above a while ago, and I do feel like that much of the time.
At other times, though, I feel less hateful. I know my parents honestly
believe the crap they believe in. I know that my mom, at least, loved me
very much and tried her best. One reason I put this off for so long is
because I know how much pain it will cause her. She has been sad since
she found out I wasn't "saved", since she believes I'm going to Hell,
which is not a sadness for which I am responsible. That was never going
to change, and presumably she believes the state of my physical body is
much less important than the state of my soul. Still, I cannot
intellectually justify this decision, knowing how much it will hurt her.
Maybe my ability to take my own life, knowing how much pain it will
cause, shows that I am a monster who doesn't deserve to live. All I know
is that I can't deal with this pain any longer and I'm am truly sorry I
couldn't wait until my family and everyone I knew died so this could be
done without hurting anyone. For years I've wished that I'd be hit by a
bus or die while saving a baby from drowning so my death might be more
acceptable, but I was never so lucky.

---

To those of you who have shown me love, thank you for putting up with
all my shittiness and moodiness and arbitrariness. I was never the
person I wanted to be. Maybe without the darkness I would have been a
better person, maybe not. I did try to be a good person, but I realize I
never got very far.

I'm sorry for the pain this causes. I really do wish I had another
option. I hope this letter explains why I needed to do this. If you
can't understand this decision, I hope you can at least forgive me.

Bill Zeller

---

Please save this letter and repost it if gets deleted. I don't want
people to wonder why I did this. I disseminated it more widely than I
might have otherwise because I'm worried that my family might try to
restrict access to it. I don't mind if this letter is made public. In
fact, I'd prefer it be made public to people being unable to read it and
drawing their own conclusions.

Feel free to republish this letter, but only if it is reproduced in its
entirety.